From long time I was thinking to write about myself. I wanted to know how I am. I wanted to know that why I am failing in life? Why the degradation is coming in my life? And the only way to know about you is to write about yourself somewhere. I have chosen this platform, so that people could know what I was and how I have changed. I am going to write about my faults that I have done. I will write all my experiences of my life, till I change myself. I wanted to show all the people how can a person who is discouraged from his life, can become a huge inspiration to others. My life is not going well. And today, I thought that I should convey my thoughts what I think about myself?
Life has given me everything. I am huge greaful to god to give me immense. I have made my life like a hell, after completion of my studies. I became lazy. Lots of stiffness has come in my body. Life is not happening to me, as I wanted, after my studies. I wanted to live a comfortable land energetic life. I am not living as I desire to live. Many times I get bore in doing one specific work. Actually, I want to be active all time. I know the fault is mine, that is not being active. But as it is said that you can’t live your life, it’s the god that makes the journey of your life. Although, I am firm believer that if you want to live your own life, in your own way, then nobody can stop you, even GOD also can't stop.This is known as determination.
After completing my education, I thought that I would wake up early morning at 5 or 6 am perform Yoga and little bit of exercises to make me fit. I wanted peace in my mind and that is what I am seeking in myself. Still, I haven’t got, because I am not regular. I woke up 1 day and do Yoga and exercise, but on the next day, again that laziness comes within me and everything stops. I am not regular in myself so am not at all active. This is the biggest Challenge I am facing. I want to become active and regular in my life. After Completion of Studies, the activeness stopped in me and laziness increase. I knew that I used to wake up at 7 am in morning, when I was in hostel and used to get ready for college and everything was going good. There was huge enjoyment in my life and now the things have completely changed. I tried to go out for an evening walk, but this also I could not do regularly.
I have also decided to pray to GOD in evening, because I knew that this is one thing, which can give me huge peace in my mind and body. But, I have stopped to pray as well. Sometimes, I do go to temple in a month. Whenever I visit temple, I don’t know what happens? Concentration is just on the GOD and nothing else. That is the place to get pure harmony and peace in you. There everything is silent. May be that is the only place, to get divine peace.
I want to start these activities and become active with my life. So I need to get cheer myself, motivate and encourage myself. I know that I was not the person, which I am today. I want original Ronark in my life. I have put on weight also. So, I need to reduce weight. People do change their life, when they think that, they have done something wrong with their life. If they realize and agree that they have done something, which should not be done, then they will surely change their manner of living. I have realized that something is going wrong in my life and I am the ony person who can change myself, no one else.
Starting of a new life easy or difficult…
I am thinking about the life. A simple answer life never stops Time goes on life goes on.
It’s not that easy to start a new life/ a new chapter of our life or not that difficult. Every person faces many problems in his/her life time. Facing problem in youngster is normal. In today life every one has girl friends and boy friend and the fall in love think about their marriage and all. But as time changes life too changes. Who know what going to be happen soon or in future? So this article is based on part of youngster life. The age of changing is 15 year. When we are 15 our body and mind changes in very high percentage. We want to feel the things. Student wants a partner to spend time with a person who knows his/her pain and sorrow. When a immature person fall in this matter he/she don’t know nothing about what’s going on in their life and they just know we both are made for each other but as time passes the interest, the courage, the love everything low downs. As we fall in love with someone we do chatting, talking over the phone all the time, meting and going out for the dates. This is all the part of a person’s life every one has to go through this phase. When we get committed no one knows that what is it but as time passes understanding, attachment with each other increase. There are many type of people in this world many are loyal and many are disloyal to their partners. Disloyal people live life in their style and loyal people always get hurt by them. As relationship goes on the mutual attachment increases and it is feels impossible to live without that person. As I felt a love relation is full of stress and impossible to handle. In our daily life we see many couples in our collages, school or in different places. They look very happy from face wise. But only that person how badly he/she is handling in that situation. Lovers do every work together. They study together, go out together, play together and find the meaning in each other. As time passes they understand each other more and more. Its sound like awesome but it the truth behind this is different. A friend of mine is in a relation ship from the school time and when they are in school they are ok. But when time comes to go out from the school life to the collage life I don’t know what happened with them and they started irritating her girl friend. I don’t know he is loyal or not but they break up as the school ends. For a girl it is very difficult to come out from this and for that girl who is loyal for only one person. Girl get hurt and she don’t know how to handle the situation. Some girls are weak from inside and they leave their live. When their relationship ends I asked her why you guys breakup. They she said we a person committed there should be both consent but when a relationship ends there should be only one persons yes. That I want to breakup. The life goes down and impossible to come out from this. If you want to come out from this situation you have to give that place to some one who can feel you and understand you better then that person who leaves you in the middle of your life. Here the turning point of a persons life he get everything if he/she is able to pass through this phase of life and if he/she not then they have to face the problems for their whole life. I know it is very difficult and equal to impossible to come out from this situation but try to enjoy what you have in your life. Life has many more things to enjoy. Don’t waste your time in to wait for that person who leave you who is not being able to understand you just come out and live life king size. As I suggest try to thing a matter from different point of view you will find a solution of it and I am proud on all the girls/boys who decide to live their life in their style and they all are the one who have achieved the success and all those who leave their current life they all are the big losers. I don’t know the thinking of other persons but this is all what I feel don’t take it personal. But as I prefer never ever fall in a relationship when the time comes of your marriage and you are well settled then think about this matter. Otherwise there is nothing except then tension inside this matter. So here I ended my topic and want to ask you that what you prefer in your life come out from the situation of bounded heart or wait for that person who leaved you. Please post you thinking about young generation and tell me about this matter if you have ever been through this situation.
There is a reason for every relation, we make in our life. There is some purpose of those relations. In every relation, there are expectations. If your relation is with someone is very good or you are very close to that person, more and more expectation will be there. Without expectation, the existence of the relation is not there. But, there is nothing wrong in expecting anything from our people. If we don’t expect from our people, then with whom, we should keep our expectation?
The person, who doesn’t have expectation, has an inefficiency of something. We humans live with expectation and to fulfill the expectation we work hard. Humans don’t only expect to get love, but also to love as well. You would feel lucky and fortunate, if you have a person, who loves you very much.
Love needs mirror. If you want to give something, but there is no one to take then what will happen? To love someone, is also the human’s expectation. To love someone is humans Necessity. Every person loves someone or other. The person, who doesn’t know how to love, can’t give love to other. We have always said and heard that in love there should no expectation. In listening these talk, looks very simple, but in reality it is completely different. In love, there is always an expectation.
Let’s have an example for understand these about facts, which we have discussed. There was one couple, who used to love each other very much. The man used to love his Women, used to fulfill all her needs, used to satisfy all the things which the women wants. The Man always used to say to that women, who was his lover, that I have no expectation from her. The man used to tell her that, I love you from my bottom of my heart. The women one day told to her lover that you always tell me that I have no expectation, but I think that you should have expectation from me, as the enjoyment in fulfilling the expectation is in love and also she added that you too have expectation. You are lying to me. Man didn’t understood his lovers thought.
Once, the women have reduced talking with her lover. She was not responding to her lover’s response. If she brings flowers for him, she puts next to her lover. If she brings Chocolate for her lover, she doesn’t give him and give it some boy. Man was very sad due to this behavior of his lover. After having tired of looking such behavior, he asked to his lover, that, why you are behaving with me like this? She answered by saying that, you didn’t had expectation. She told that you do your work according to you and I will do my work according to myself. The Man told that this is not fair. The Women told to her lover that, then you should tell the truth, that he also wants love from her. The women added that Expectation is must. She wants that love between them should go beyond their limit. She tells that expectation would be there between us. Both of have expectation on each other. She tells to her lover that, I want to increase this expectation ever more than before. The women had huge expectation but she also wanted to agree to her lover that she too gives that equal love to him. To tell that there is no expectation decreases the love. So it’s better to have huge expectation. This will make our relation more strong than before.
Human being should always keep the expectation. To satisfy expectation is LOVE. That is the relation. There are many people in this world that feels happy when they themselves satisfy the expectation of their people. Human being becomes happier when he/she gives happy to their people.
Human beings always love 2 things. One is Price and other is Surprise. The purpose of giving Surprise is always to keep their people and family happy. If we see in one way, that is also our expectation to see our people and family happy. If we go to someone’s house to give surprise and if that person instead of becoming happy, becomes angry to you then? That makes you more sad, as you get opposite of what you had expected.
There is no problem in keeping expectation. One thing we should keep in our mind that our expectation should not be such that other person can't satisfy. Many times, even when the person has expectation of fulfilling others needs, but due to some problems, he/she can’t fulfill it. It doesn’t mean that he/she doesn’t have love. Every human being has some limit. Every Human being has some restrictions.
Our expectation should not overcome the love. Sometimes, when our expectation goes high, and the other person, is not able to fulfill that expectation, then the relation between those people becomes weak. I think we should understand the other person also. His/her limit should be our mind before expecting. Love always takes exams. We should not create difficulty for other person, towards expectation. This could be worst in our relation and the relations could break. Love always gives the answers. If the expectation which are not fulfilled now, will be fulfilled tomorrow. Every Morning is a new start. Every morning new expectations arise. So once ignored, it can be fulfilled next time.
One Beloved told to her lover that I ask something from you and you provide me, is disagree to me. This doesn’t mean that I don’t want anything from you. What I want that even though I don’t ask from you, and you satisfy my needs, is what I want from you. Well! This discussion is not about asking anything or giving anything, but it’s that understanding that is needed in between the Beloved and her lover. You could feel that joy within you and your lover, when the understanding meets between them. Without sound even Disgust doesn’t remain still. If you disgust to someone and he/she doesn’t feel that disgust. If you slap a person and he/she doesn’t feel that slap on the face then? If that disgust is not possible without sound, then how could love be possible?
In every relation, we have an expectation if happiness or Sadness. Every time we have an expectation to reduce the sadness and increase the happiness among our people. More and more close relations, more and more expectations. If we are having 5 friends and from them they would 2 or 3 friends with whom our tuning is very good and they always remain in touch with you. So, you would have more expectations from them.
If we believe on our friends of not expecting those things which he/she did, we say that I didn’t expected from you. We always have an expectation from our friends to be good with our self. Also, we have an expectation from our self as well to do well. We check our self various times that we are not going wrong on our path. Various times we get Negative thoughts in our mind that makes us angry and we could do something wrong with us or with other.
There were 2 friends. One friend told to other about some internal things, which he is going to commit. The other friend thought that his friend is not doing right. He told to his friend, that you are not doing this right. The friend told to other friend that I was not expecting this from you. The other friend told that what were you expecting? You thought that I am would agree to your work, which you are going to do? Or I told no, that you didn’t expect? In the end the other friend told that, because I think that the work which you are going to do is not good, that’s why I told you to remain away but even though you commit this work, then too I will be with you, because you are my friend. To satisfy expectation by closing our eyes is also not love.
There is a huge difference between Expectation and Hegemony. Various times our expectations goes to the limit of Hegemony and this hegemony is responsible for the ending our relation and love with others. Keep expectation in love and be ready to fulfill those expectations. Just keep one thing in the mind that the expectations should not be able to touch the sky when the expectations can’t be heard.
I love him more than I love any one else
There is some one who can hit me, slap my face, make me stinky and that would still make me love him even more, make me not angry a bit. I am afraid of him because he can pull my laptop and can do many more weird jobs whenever he wants to and whatever he feels like. In addition, the height of this all is, he laughs aloud doing such things.
Yes, I am talking about the small fellow who was born on April22, 2011 to my only daughter in India although he is an Australian citizen now. This boy makes me think now whether this is my daughter who is most loved one to me or this little lovely angel. Anyway, this baby has almost replaced her, my daughter, from number one spot of the list of most loved ones. This pic was taken while he was 7 months in Bangalore.
We changed our plan
I never knew that every thing would change so fast for me before this kid was born, although we all had been waiting so eagerly for his arrival. Every passing day brought me nearer to him and as much, he was growing. He is one of the most precious people whom I know today. He makes me visit my daughter’s place occasionally and more frequently now.
Yes, he certainly is a charmer, He is adorable and I love his smile. Personally, I think a grandchild has a tighter lock on the heart of a grandparent than that child's parent ever did as a baby. I do not know if that is because we have reached an age where we are more relaxed about the antics of a toddler, or because we do not have to live with them twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. Whatever, I enjoy the company of my own grandson as much as I did his mother's at the same age!
He reminds us of our daughter
What I feel is that they remind us of the childhood of our own children. I feel more attached with him as I was really missing my daughter for such a long time. She went for her studies first then joined the job, so when I found this little one, my experience was so much as if I got her back and now whenever I am away from him makes me feel to go rejoin him as soon as possible
There are so many memories I have in my mind to share with someone weather or not any one interested to listen to me. However, I cannot stop myself from sharing them despite knowing, every one has his own quota of such adorable memories of their own.
How can I forget the way he pulls my hair while he is around me while I am working and he is trying to draw my attention? Just how can I forget the way he wants to rush toward me while he sees me walking anywhere near him. Yes, he cannot walk properly on his feet yet but he knows how to make his moves fast enough on all his four.
The entire life changes with a new member in our life
How do things change when a child comes in our life? That changes every plan we may have for our future life. This is so true at least in my case. I had so many things those were taking shape in my mind while I resigned from my whole time job in ’09 and thought of taking up to writing some funny articles, which I thought I was capable of writing.
All my plans failed
This was absolutely an ideal situation for me when I married off my daughter and was taking things lightly sitting with my flowers in my lawn and a book in my mind about, different tourist spots within my country and a few nearby countries. This was a joint venture with my wife, who was supposed to do camera work for the book while I was to do typing part of it, traveling around the places, gathering data and information.
No I did not know this would happen to me as I had been traveling with my wife every once in a while- while I was working on my book along with my wife and I had posted some of the chapters here on hubpages in my earlier account. I hope I shall bring them back some time soon. Thanks for your great contribution, my best regards. A moneylender always loves the interest rather than the Principal
I have done a lot of hard work doing this picture the way it looks. He was 8 months then.
We rushed to take care of our daughter
However, with news of an expected guest soon changed our plans halfway and we rushed to our daughter’s place to take care of her during her time of need. The baby was born while we were still there and we felt the same as we did so many years before while our only child our daughter was born. We really enjoyed the childhood allover again. The newly born baby gave us all the memories back. The kids are such a joy to live with; they make us feel so joyful. They are gifts of God.
He is almost my lifeline now. I long for him whenever I am away for him. I had been to Sydney a couple of month’s back, just to see him, to play with him. I had some work back here so could not stay there for long enough. I think that is because they remind us the childhood of our own kids, every thing goes back in flashback and you love them even more. I am happy to note that some of my friends are also waiting for some great news coming their way soon as they too are expecting their first grandchildren. I am planning to start a grand parent’s club with them.
HE WAS TWO MONTHS IN THIS PIC
With nothing to do, I am doing lots of funny thing
You see people think that I am doing so many funny things online but I cannot help it as trying to divert my attention from my children who are too far and wife busy with her own activities I have lots of time to kill. I do it on online activities that keep me busy and away from memories of my kiddo. I hope to see my children soon while they shall visit us or if they fail to make it here, we shall be off to Sydney.
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