From long time I was thinking to write about myself. I wanted to know how I am. I wanted to know that why I am failing in life? Why the degradation is coming in my life? And the only way to know about you is to write about yourself somewhere. I have chosen this platform, so that people could know what I was and how I have changed. I am going to write about my faults that I have done. I will write all my experiences of my life, till I change myself. I wanted to show all the people how can a person who is discouraged from his life, can become a huge inspiration to others. My life is not going well. And today, I thought that I should convey my thoughts what I think about myself?

           Life has given me everything. I am huge greaful to god to give me immense. I have made my life like a hell, after completion of my studies. I  became lazy. Lots of stiffness has come in my body. Life is not happening to me, as I wanted, after my studies. I wanted to live a comfortable land energetic life. I am not living as I desire to live. Many times I get bore in doing one specific work. Actually, I want to be active all time. I know the fault is mine, that is not being active. But as it is said that you can’t live your life, it’s the god that makes the journey of your life. Although, I am firm believer that if you want to live your own life, in your own way, then nobody can stop you, even GOD also can't stop.This is known as determination.

          After completing my education, I thought that I would wake up early  morning at 5 or 6 am perform Yoga and little bit of exercises to make me fit. I wanted peace in my mind and that is what I am seeking in myself. Still, I haven’t got, because I am not regular. I woke up 1 day and do Yoga and exercise, but on the next day, again that laziness comes within me and everything stops. I am not regular in myself so am not at all active. This is the biggest Challenge I am facing. I want to become active and regular in my life. After Completion of Studies, the activeness  stopped in me and laziness increase. I knew that I used to wake up at 7 am in morning, when I was in hostel and used to get ready for college and everything was going good. There was huge enjoyment in my life and now the things have completely changed. I tried to  go out for an evening walk, but this also I could not do regularly.

          I have also decided to pray to GOD in evening, because I knew that this is one thing, which can give me huge peace in my mind and body. But, I have stopped to pray as well. Sometimes, I do go to temple in a month. Whenever I visit temple, I don’t know what happens? Concentration is just on the GOD and nothing else. That is the place to get pure harmony and peace in you. There everything is silent. May be that is the only place, to get divine peace.

          I want to start these activities  and become active with  my life. So I need to get cheer  myself, motivate and encourage myself. I know that I was not the person, which I am today. I want original Ronark in my life.  I have put on weight also. So, I need  to reduce weight. People do change their life, when they think that, they have done something wrong with their life. If they realize and agree that they have done something, which should not be done, then they will surely change their manner of living. I have realized that something is going wrong in my life and I am the ony person who can change myself, no one else.