I fell in love with my baby even before she was born. Yes, when I first saw her inside me during the first ultrasound; something inside me changed! I was going to attain motherhood. Sooner than I realized I held my baby girl in my arms. She made me feel a complete woman.
Soon enough I gave up my career and job, yes to take care of my darling. Before becoming a mum, I never thought of giving up a career that I was so much in love with. I had my share of struggle to give about 5-6 years of my hard work and dedication to reach where I was. Looking at so many other mothers who rejoined office right after giving birth never made me think that I would stand out, and not join the bandwagon of moms who work in offices. I know there are plenty of other mothers who must have given up their careers to take of their little ones. But for me, the example I had before me, people I knew made it felt as if the coming of a baby was just another milestone or just another item in their checklist. It didn’t bother them to leave their babies under the care of a babysitter. Anyway, I am no one to comment on what other people choose to do. All I am trying to say is that like many mothers, I too felt I would rejoin. But, I just could not leave my baby. How could I? When I brought this little person on this earth, it was my duty to take care of her, at least for the first two years, which is quite crucial for a baby’s development.
Nevertheless, giving up full-time job was not easy but as mentioned earlier; I prioritized looking after my baby more than anything else. But giving up my income, giving up friends and colleagues wasn’t easy. Earlier, I never used to bother about detailing out things, but my little one changed everything. Taking care of a baby has made me more patient, tolerant, compassionate, and tender. My husband keeps telling me, ‘ I never thought you would be able to look after your baby all by yourself, give up a lucrative job, and become so endearing!’ I guess this comes with the motherhood package!
However, I do miss my job, I miss shopping both window and actual, miss spending loads of time reading books without having to worry about anything, miss my gymming, yoga, I miss being me. At the same time, I have come to realize that motherhood has made be a stronger person, somebody who can take care and guard another human being, somebody who can be a world to another person. I also believe that motherhood is a full-time job, which you can never give up but keep on trying to get better. I feel blessed and at the same time feel challenged.
To me motherhood brings in loads of joy, lots and lots of love and at the same time curbs your freedom. Freedom of being what you were before becoming a mother. But time never comes back, so let me enjoy being a mommy and enjoy this role.