Feeling lonely in a great grand crowd,

With cry inside and cheer outside,

Helpless pain within, a look of frown signed in.

Did I search this sign?

Or is this a gift sent by God to understand people of mine.

Either way , however, its me and me alone.

Bounced back from my formal being and moaned.

A new feel , a new look with new questions around.

However, no one to question and

None to hear me as well , I know.

My smile Is not my own I know,

Am least bothered about it.

One shoulder to fall and cry I seeked,

Am seeking , seeking and seeking.

Will this lead me to turn insane?

Or will teach me to live the same ?

Felt some fingers, to wipe my tears,

Later realized they are my own.

Is it better to walk away or to turn and wait?

If I walk , I have to walk forever,

If I wait , I have to wait forever and ever.

There are so many with love and affection to share,

Am asking only one to shower me some care,

What kind of feel is this ?????

I realized the opaque nature existing in me.

Why is that some pass away when

Some tears cross my way?

Lost my identity, I lost my smile.

I was happy the way i was,

What changed the coin tat I tossed ?

I had many branches strong enough,

Withstood winds and rains that passed.

Now am just another  wood, 

Ready to turn into ashes , for warmth of other.

Am not ready to walk , I dont want to wait,

Let me remain the same as now,

Let me dump my cries, sorrows and hatred. 

Let me smile and sound swe et.