Time & again, one questions himself about the stance he has being occupying. I guess i am asking such questions to myself from the past 3 years or so. I had ideas, plenty of them, i still have them, somehow execution side is not going on as per wish. My ideas are states, where i stuck with them & i intended to remain in that same state. Some people will say that is rigidness & inflexibility. But for me its believing in those ideas with immense faith- that it will materialize, for i don't want to look back in reminiscence that what i could have become as per my plans & what i ended up in becoming, courtesy of a compromise in past.
Success as they say is a journey not a destination. If thats true then i am prepared for a bumpy ride. My failures are my own & have made me a wiser person. As per me, Its always good to shape your future with your own hands & i know if you have a clear understanding & reasoning , u wont need any outside help. If you fail, or even succeed , it would be your own doing..You control ur life, u face the storms, u take the punches, u be the crafter of ur own destiny...win or loose , u did it on your own.
Is this selfishness?? coz people may argue that in this tightly coupled world you are attached to so many beings that are depended on you, love u ..care for u... Well for them, be assured that u people have my attention & ur points are being noted. I am giving ample chance for my theories to work in accordance to ur helpful tips , finding commonalities, bridging differences , and respecting opinions that sometimes, may differ heavily.
There's a difference between self-respect & self-esteem. People often confuse my self-respect with ego. Whenever i disagree with you it has to do something related to moral clash rather than a ego clash. As much as i heed your advice, its also true that i seldom care about what others think about me.. As for me, i can say for sure that i am true to myself & true unto others who care for me. I dnt care if u critisize me, coz i don't give a damn if i know deep inside that its not true. I care mostly abt what i think of myself rather than opinions of others who will hardly open up their windows to look at the real me. I believe in getting rich by myself than by borrowing from others. So, dont get me wrong when i say i dnt need your help or references. I may have well thought reasons behind it... And this way of living...is certainly not selfishness.
I believe we are magical beings with superpowers named patience & hope. To have faith in your unfulfilled dreams & having trust that working hard towards them may lead to their fulfillment, no matter how long it takes and no matter how many instances it take , hoping against hope, hoping against your parents, friends , hoping against the entire world, is one of the greatest gifts we imbibe inside us as human beings. Human life is a miracle and so are some of the human virtues. Its upto us to use these virtues to our advantage or ignore this precious gift...